I haven't written this in a while.... but I have a reason!  .....besides the fact that I'm lazy.   I went to write in it, and after writing about a novel sized entry.... it deleted my work!  I was like  !?!?!  So I decided that I would give my xanga site a "lesson" by ignoring it for a while.  .... After realizing I was acting childish.... and my computer is not a person with feelings, I'M BACK!!!

.... Anyway, speeking of lessons, I tought my first "real" sunday school class last weekend, and I'm honestly wondering what I got myself into.  This is a good group of kids, don't get me wrong, but I have a hard time not crossing the line of being "one of them" instead of being the teacher.  Sometimes I feel that teaching a gift i have from God, but I'll see real gifted teachers and I get kind of discouraged.  Teaching is something I really want to do, but is it what God's plan is for me?  Or am I just doubting myself and my gifts?

.... This is kind of a tough spot for me right now.  I am anxious for school to start, and I'm looking for a part time job for the school year.  Sometimes it's hard to know where God wants you, and what plans He has for your life.  This summer the biggest lesson I learned (and am always learning) from God is TRUST.  I've been learning how to trust His will for my life.... even when things in my life are unclear.  Please pray for me throughout my school year and that I'll grow everyday to be a man of God.  Even though sometimes I doubt Him and His will for my life, I only do so because I can't see His plan for me.  Just because I cant see what He is doing in my life, I can feel it.  I have been so bleesed to have this new found desire to be with Him.  I pray everyday that this fire will not go away, and that I continue to let Him guide my life. 

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Aug. 28th 2004

This is an interesting and scary time in my life right now.  I just graduated from high school, my girlfriend... er, ex-girlfriend and I just broke up, and most of my friends closest to me went away for college.  This should be a sad time in my life, but I have been able to find comfort and strength in the Lord. 

ISAIAH 41:10 "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."

I still feel sad sometimes, but then I remember that God's with me and He has a perfect plan for my life.

JEREMIAH 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

With the faith and knowledge that God is by my side in my whole walk of life... at ALL times, I feel confident going into college, and the future because things will work out fine for me in the long run.

God is great and good and He will be there and always is there, through everything.  I've learned that no matter how hard things are, you can find comfort in Him, and he'll pull you through.  If you don't believe me, read JOB, or any part of the Bible.